be my escape.

integrity

Sun, 19 May 2013 16:28:57 -0400

the quality or state of being complete or undivided

Integrity is a concept of consistency of actions, values, methods, measures, principles, expectations, and outcomes. In ethics, integrity is regarded as the honesty and truthfulness or accuracy of one’s actions. Integrity can be regarded as the opposite of hypocrisy, in that integrity regards internal consistency as a virtue, and suggests that parties holding apparently conflicting values should account for the discrepancy or alter their beliefs.

my sweet daughter, this is my desire..

Thu, 16 May 2013 16:04:40 -0400

for you to love me with ALL your heart, ALL your mind, ALL your strength, and with ALL your soul.
give me your whole heart. I want it. I want 100% of it.

THIS IS WHAT HE DESIRES OUT OF HIS CHILDREN. He desires complete oneness with Him. That we can be willing to lay down everything for Him. To have complete trust and faith in Him.
When it is clear that I am in depravity without Him, because He is the only good in me, I want to surrender and change more. He has been showing me little by little what it looks like and what it means to die to myself and live in Christ. And throughout this process, i see my sin. I see my many weaknesses and faint of heart. And it makes me sooo desperately want for Him to break and mold me so that out of my heart will come genuine, GENUINE, love and obedience. I’m so weak and fearful, but He is so strong and true to His promises and character. Father, change me more! Make me less! Holy Spirit, fix my eyes on Christ in every area of my life. Help me to see more of my own sin so i can repent!!!!!! I want genuine love for you and your people to flow through me…. I just want to be with you and know you more. Thank you that even though i fail so much, you still love me.

a porcelain cup and teapot

Wed, 08 May 2013 02:23:00 -0400

it looked something like this. God poured hot water into a porcelain cup and said “I will fill this generation” He WILL FILL our generation!!!!
He will fill us with the Holy Spirit, who enables us to even know the things of God and draws us to Him. God wants everyone to know that He alone satisfies even more than a hot cup of tea ahah..

Ephesians 5:1-20 ¹Follow God’s example, therefore, as dearly loved children ²and walk in the way of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.

³But among you there must not be even a hint of sexual immorality, or of any kind of impurity, or of greed, because these are improper for God’s holy people. ⁴Nor should there be obscenity, foolish talkor coarse joking, which are out of place, but rather thanksgiving. ⁵For of this you can be sure: No immoral, impure or greedy person—such a person is an idolater—has any inheritance in the kingdom of Christ and of God.^[a] ⁶Let no one deceive you with empty words, for because of such things God’s wrath comes on those who are disobedient. ⁷Therefore do not be partners with them.

⁸For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light ⁹(for the fruitof the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth) ¹⁰and find out what pleases the Lord.¹¹Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them. ¹²It is shameful even to mention what the disobedient do in secret. ¹³But everything exposed by the light becomes visible—and everything that is illuminated becomes a light. ¹⁴This is why it is said:

“Wake up, sleeper,
rise from the dead,
and Christ will shine on you.”

¹⁵Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, ¹⁶making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. ¹⁷Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord’s will is. ¹⁸Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit,¹⁹speaking to one another with psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit. Sing and make music from your heart to the Lord, ²⁰always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.

“In the last days, God says, I will pour out my Spirit on all people. Your sons and daughters will prophesy, your young men will see visions, your old men will dream dreams.” Acts 2:17

purpose

Sun, 05 May 2013 19:28:50 -0400

i was made for You.
by Your grace, we can be one.

under His feet was something like a pavement made of lapis...

Thu, 02 May 2013 15:49:46 -0400

under His feet was something like a pavement made of lapis lazuli, as bright blue as the sky - exodus 24:10

woahhhh

"I cling to Jesus with every fiber of my being because He is unfailing, He is absolute, He is..."

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 14:56:58 -0400

“I cling to Jesus with every fiber of my being because He is unfailing, He is absolute, He is steadfast and His grace is deeper and wider than my imagination can even fathom. In Him and Him alone is where I’ve discovered a hope more bright and beautiful than words can possibly describe.”

- Adam Young (via nonelikejesus)

Photo

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 18:11:52 -0400

God doesn't want an eternity without His bride

Fri, 26 Apr 2013 18:35:00 -0400

He has a desire to be with you.
oh, the day when Kingdom comes…

littlethingsaboutgod: It is better that you be lonely now than...

Mon, 22 Apr 2013 23:06:22 -0400

littlethingsaboutgod:

It is better that you be lonely now than for you to get married to a man that will teach your kids everything but the way of Jesus - Matt Chandler

my heart is exploding at the moment.

Thu, 18 Apr 2013 21:14:00 -0400

my heart is exploding at the moment.

i love my recomm. so thankful for these people.

Thu, 18 Apr 2013 15:09:18 -0400

i love my recomm.
so thankful for these people.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINDA <3

Sat, 13 Apr 2013 02:49:41 -0400

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINDA <3

"‘It is finished.’ May those words land on your bones for the nights when fear tells you the cross..."

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 17:24:37 -0400

“‘It is finished.’ May those words land on your bones for the nights when fear tells you the cross was a beginning & you must finish grace.”

- Jon Acuff (via godmoves)

Jesus Turned Around - Judah Smithi’m loved by such a good...

Fri, 05 Apr 2013 15:05:47 -0400

Jesus Turned Around - Judah Smith

i’m loved by such a good God.
Thank you Jesus.

beautiful things - gungor

Wed, 03 Apr 2013 03:50:12 -0400

beautiful things - gungor

Photo

Tue, 02 Apr 2013 04:11:59 -0400

you inspire me. really

Tue, 02 Apr 2013 03:50:00 -0400

hi again!

i promised to answer your question from about two weeks ago..
Forgive me, because this is posted later than when i promised.

I’m sorry about that :/

But hope your spring break was good (if you had one :)) !!

Hope that whoever you are, we can become good friends! I’m assuming we have met before, or maybe you are someone who lives halfway across the world! i guess i will never know haha!! :D

hope that this post encourages ya! And I hope this makes sense. I wrote this off and on for like 3 days and I didn’t really edit anything hahah….

I will share A LITTLE bit of where I have been to now! sorry if it’s long :(((

Well, here it goes!

So, i was actually brought up in the church since i was born.
My parents got me infant baptized, and since then i have been going to church. I guess I remember even as an elementary school kid, being really amazed by God. I learned simple things and heard things over and over again every sunday so that as a child i will at least know this very well - that Jesus loves you and me, that God sent His son, Jesus, to die on the cross for our sins, and that He rose again from the dead three days later. These simple but radical truths, left me in awe. I was honestly amazed.

And then time went on, and i grew up haha…. If i could give you a few words to describe a little about what I went through and how I felt it would be these: “loner” ”misunderstood” “unheard” “weirdo” “ugly” “different” “goody-two-shoes” ”boring” and many more.

When people see me now, they would never guess that I am an introvert and can be very quiet. I’m actually quite loud in person hahah!!! But, growing up i was pretty quite and shy, mostly only at church. At the church I grew up in, I had one of the hardest times. During elementary I felt very unloved and rejected. I don’t really know what it was, or maybe my perception was just skewed because I was so sensitive and young, but this is just what I felt. Maybe it was because I was such a tomboy and very opinionated that other girls didn’t like me, I really don’t know. But I felt rejected just by of the looks on peoples faces when they saw me, and the way they talked to me compared to all the other girls. I just could remember a number of incidences that really hurt me as a little kid. I always felt really ugly in comparison to everyone else and unheard. I felt though I’ve been at the church for 10 years or more, no one knew me, and no one wanted to know me. It was just sooooo hard for me to approach anyone else first, when I felt so scarred from the beginning and nothing was really done about it. But all the while, at school I was really outgoing and talkative. I made friends pretty easily because I was able to talk to just about anybody haha! I was the student that the teachers always moved because I talked too much to the people next to me haha…. I don’t know how and why I was so different in school and church. But I was. Still, though I felt so lonely going here, I served at church. These people in my youth group, I’ve never hated them. In fact, I wanted to be close friends with all of them. But I just didn’t understand them. You know what I realized once I got to know Jesus more and aged a little? I was wrong and had a lot of learning to do about forgiveness, love, and grace. I obviously am not better than any of them, not by a bit, but I thought I was…

Also, I had a really low self-esteem growing up. I had such a low self-esteem that I couldn’t talk to people on the phone because I thought they could hear the ugliness through my voice, and I just felt that they wouldn’t like me. I couldn’t for the longest time, till high school, go to the cashier to buy something. I just feared talking to them because again, i thought they wouldn’t like me. Kind of weird haha…For the longest time I believed a lie that I wouldn’t be liked by people, even people who don’t know me. And this lie caused me to have a slave mentality, and a self-hating one too. I would think myself worthless, and put myself down before everyone. I didn’t think I needed to be paid attention to. Back then I thought that what I was doing was good because I cared for other people way more than I did for myself, but it really wasn’t. My actions were stemming out of self-pity and worthlessness. But God told me that I must love myself and love others. He also said that I am worth it. With all my bruises, scars, and pains, I was worth loving. Not because He felt sorry for me, but because He knows the real me. He created me to be someone who can really love other people not by my conditional and fake love that stems from pain, but by His love that is unfailing and everlasting. There was a point in my life, where I was really down. I don’t think I can really call it depression but I did have suicidal thoughts and almost attempted it. And again, when I look back at that time, I was just being really attacked with lies. Even though that was such a hard year for me, God encountered me! I was at a winter retreat. I probably went with little expectation and a tired soul and mind. During worship, the truths that we were singing out really stuck out to me (thank you Holy Spirit haha) !!! I was struck and undone by the verses in the songs. And then I felt this unexplainable peace !! The Holy Spirit just came over me, and flooded my heart with peace. He relieved me of my burdens at that moment. I was delivered of lies, and I think God opened my eyes to really see things in a new light. He was drawing me closer to Him, and as I sought after knowing Him more, I was able to know what the truth was. I tasted His goodness, and I wanted it more. To know and love Him more!

Then there was a period, where I didn’t go to church for one whole year. The church I grew up in fell apart. The senior pastor left, and from there it was pretty downhill. Our church went through maybe 5 or so youth pastors, that all left within a year or less. This scarred me. And because there was no pastor, and I lived kind of far from that church (because i moved), my family stopped going there all together. My relationship with God didn’t grow bitter, it just went distant and stopped growing. At this point, I was still a person who didn’t have a clue about who I really am. I still had no idea about how God sees me as His daughter and who He has created me to be. I did not know about my identity in Christ, so my relationship with Him wasn’t really going anywhere. I didn’t put little to no effort in my relationship with Him.

Then I came to the church I am currently attending, Sarang!

I love it haha! Since freshman year I have been learning and growing a lot! When i first came, I loved it because I learned something every week on Sunday. I was totally amazed about what I learned. And it was freshman year that I remembered my first love again, Jesus. He has helped me see how He has given me everything in this life. And it only makes me want to respond by giving everything back to Him. I fail all the time! EVERYDAY!!!! But He forgives me, doesn’t hold it against me and sees to it that I keep on running the race. Jesus has given me joy in living daily for Him! He is so worthy of our lives! I can’t really explain well how everything just flipped and changed. I just know that once I was awakened to His goodness and His beauty, nothing else seemed to matter as much as He did. His name is so beautiful. Jesus is so beautiful. And He loves me and you so so so much. What He has done for us 2000 years ago is the greatest love story of all. I don’t understand all the time, but I guess we will have eternity to understand just a little bit more. This is really an undeserved love. Jesus loves us because He just does. He is love. Jesus is soooo amazinnggggg!!! He is the one who has delivered me from anger, bitterness, loneliness, sexual sin, and sadness! In exchange for these things, the Lord has given to me freely joy, love, peace, forgiveness, understanding and SO MUCH MOREEEE!!!!! There was nothing that I did on my own strength that I was able to change my life, it was because of Jesus, that my life has changed.

I think I will stop here because if i explain everything I can go on and on! And a part of me thinks that I don’t need to explain everything haha.. There are a lot of missing details and stuff but I hope that this shows a little glimpse of how awesome our God is.

He is the one that makes all things new! He is the one who has called me His precious daughter. He is the one who gave His son for you and I. He is the one who loves unconditionally. God is the one deserving of all honor and praise! Let’s live for His Kingdom to reign on Earth and love Him with our lives! All to Him be the Glory!!!!

Again sorry for posting this so late. Hope you see this …

God Bless You !!!!! :D

Oceans (where my feet may fail) - Hillsong United

Mon, 18 Mar 2013 00:35:15 -0400

Oceans (where my feet may fail) - Hillsong United

how were you introduced to christianity? how did you get saved?

Sun, 17 Mar 2013 17:49:00 -0400

hey, i would love to share!!! It’s just gonna take me a while to type up it up. Just because i need to think before splurging all the details. And I’m actually in the middle of finals for school…so if you don’t get a response in the middle of this week…count on a response next week for sure! hope that’s okay sorry : (
have a good week! and if you have finals too GOOOD LUCK : )

p.s. thank you for your encouragement (i’m assuming it’s from the same person)
But it made me happy and thankful to Jesus that His love is shining through!! yippeeeee :]

how are you?

Sat, 16 Mar 2013 03:35:57 -0400

i’m doing good.
just a little tired.
how are you? : )